Saturday, April 29, 2006


Colorado was such a blast. This is what I love about Rachel and T, when we're all together, we find joy in the simplest things. We can just be sitting there, yet, we're having the best time. Who knew a game of Sorry could be so exciting or Deal or No Deal - what a rush! haha. Even a simple thumbs up to a stranger or waitress will draw the biggest laugh from me. It's little things like that that really make our friendship work.
Some things I learned while I was there: I suddenly became an excellent bowler amidst the lingering smells of the unmentionable. Ski suits and jackets of the 1980's are still totally cool. I'm still a fairly decent skiier, although, the first couple of runs tend to get away from me. I should probably never take the GRE, although, I wouldn't be half bad at the vocabulary section with my mnemonic devices. I could stare at the mountains all day long and never get bored. I know the exact game plan if I were to make it on the show Deal or No Deal. Colorado is filled with people from all over the world. Rachel needs to make a cd and go out on tour. I learned a lot about organic food and the maker's diet. I found myself requesting to listen to avril lavinge and kelly clarkson all the time. The Simple Life is a really funny show. Danielle Steele used to be married to ex-cons. The American Idol audience doesn't know what they're talking about half the time. It's okay to laugh out loud till you're almost crying and rolling on the floor while watching America's Funniest Home Videos, other people do too! I've confirmed that T-Bone is the craziest girl on this planet. Smarty pants is a bad word. I could be a really good pool player, if random guys would just let us play and not take our table! And if you're about to go over a cliff while skiing (or at least think you are) Fall Down!

There was so much fun packed in the short little week I was there. Staying up late with Rachel laughing our heads off about what we used to look like back in the day, our siblings and the stupid things they used to do, and then some of the stupid stuff we've done. And T-Bone, the girl is infectious. You just want to be around her because you never know what she's going to say. Thanks for a great vacation girls. I love you.

Friday, April 28, 2006

I seriously have to laugh at myself because of my emotional state. Honestly, I cry at just about anything that even has a sliver of sadness, joy, excitement, or jubilation attached to it. Hallmark commericials - get me every time. I'm being serious here people. Just a couple of days ago I was watching Oprah and she had on some "Amazing Kids." I watched the majority of the show in tears until I had to turn it off because I couldn’t take it anymore. Its like my heart doesn't know what to think. I'm so happy that I decide to cry. And then when I'm sad, I fall apart. Its really something to laugh about actually.

I remember one time when I was sitting on the couch watching ESPN with my younger brother. There was story about a dad and his relationship with his son. Now, ESPN is man's television station right, but I couldn't help it. At one point, my brother goes "Oh my gosh! Are you kidding me, you're actually crying. What's wrong with you." What can I say, ESPN gets me! Haha. Don't even try me on TLC or Lifetime Television for Women! Haha. I don't know what it is. Even Friends episodes tug at the ole heart strings.

I guess its fair to say that I am just a caring person who feels for everyone and everything. (Or that I'm a wimp who can't control her emotions.) I'll choose the former. So to all of my friends, be glad that you have me as your friend, because when you're feeling down, I'll be right there by you crying alongside!

Btw, have you seen the new Slyvan commercial? Watch out, it'll get you! :)

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Look at this cute little girl. Miss Lilly Anne, you so silly.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

The Easter bunny brought me a little present this year in the form of Rascal Flatts new cd. YES! Heres a little taste of a song I'd like to sing you. So if you're ever in my car with me, be sure to request it!

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

whats the deal, yesterday, warm 71....
today, snow, 32 !!
are you freaking kidding me!

Monday, April 24, 2006

Shout out to my "brother" Aaron in Oregon. Its his birthday today and I miss him. Have a happy birthday!!

So I had the pleasure of going to the Iowa Cubs baseball game with T-Bone this weekend. I just love baseball. I pray, Lord, please let me marry a baseball player! haha. Seriously though, I could spend all day talking with TBone about who knows what. We always seem to have so much to talk about. And its so great to both be Iowa girls and have that in common. I'm constantly amazed at how much we have in common especially our sense of humor. It’s a good thing too, otherwise, awkward situations would be a little more awkward and a lot less funny! She's great though and I'm glad she's back in the corn state for just a little while before kamp starts. Its such a blessing to have her around again.

It's really hard to believe the summer is almost here. I can't believe that I've been in Des Moines this long. Its crazy to me! This summer is really going to be a test for me and how I handle being indoors for the majority of the day. Not exactly something I look forward to but being in Iowa for ALL of the summer will really test me, in all sorts of ways. Just be prepared, some of you, to get calls from me complaining about my life or wishing I was someplace else. The Lord has me in Iowa for a reason and I'm resting in the fact that he knows why. Whether I ever figure it out or not! The more I disappear, the more He becomes clear! I want all I am to die so all He is can come alive! That's honestly my prayer for my life right now. That the Lord will take hold of my life and guide me to where He has called me to be. Whether that is in Iowa or not, my trust must lie in Him. He's already placed things on my heart and confirmed them over and over again about what I should be doing with my life. It's just getting to that point, stepping out, and letting go! Patience my friend, patience.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Happy Happy Happy

Birthday Birthday Birthday

Happy Birthday to my Big Brother Jason! You're so old!

Saturday, April 22, 2006

21 Firsts............

1.Who was your first date?

2. First homecoming date?
homecoming was not a big deal at my school

3. Who was your first roommate
Ba ba ba Betsy

4. What was your first alcoholic beverage you drank?
when I was about 10, I had a drink of my grandpas coke, or what i thought was coke. Turns out, had a little somethin somethin in it!

5. What was your first job?
I worked for the Baseball Diamonds in high school during the summer

6. What was your first car?

7. When did you go to your first funeral?
great grandmas, I really dont remember when that was

8. How old were you when you first moved away from your home.

9. First Girlfriend/Boyfriend?
Mike Stille - kindergarten

10. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?

11. When you snuck out of your house for the first time,who was it with?

12. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?
Andrea, and I haven't seen her forever. Would love to sit and chat though

13. Where was your first sleepover?

14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?

15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsman?
Hayley and Michaels, although I was a junior bridesmaid in my godmothers wedding, that doesnt really count.

16. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
take a breath, pray

17. What was the first concert you ever went to?
Amy Grant!!

18. First tattoo or piercing?
ears, 4th grade

19. First time you smoked?

20. first four sports you ever played?
gymnastics, softball, track, basketball

21. First pet?
no pets, I did have an imaginary friend though! haha

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Shout out to Brooke on her birthday! The last birthday girl left in the 220 house.
Happy Birthday Lucky Star!!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006


Ri Ri Ri Ritter is engaged!!! Yeah!!! Adam and Sara got engaged on Saturday!

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Pretty much the coolest guy I know.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Plan your days accordingly:
April 1 - one cent day
2 - national peanut butter and jelly day
3- tweed day and dont got to work unless its fun day
4- tell a lie day
5- Go for broke day
6- sorry charlie day
7- no housework day
8- all is ours day
9- winston churchill day and name yourself day
10- golfers day
11- eight track tape day
12- look up at the sky day
13-blame somebody else day
14- national pecan day
15-rubber eraser day
16-national stress awareness day and national eggs benedict day
17- national cheese ball day
18- international jugglers day
19- garlic day
20- look alike day
21- kindergarten day
22- national jelly bean day
23- read me day and world laboratory animal day
24- national pigs in a blanket day
25- national zucchini bread day
26- richter scale day and national pretzel day
27- tell a story day
28- great poetry reading day and kiss your mate day
29- national shrimp scampi day
30- national honesty day

whats your favorite!??

Saturday, April 08, 2006

New favorite artist: Warren Barfield.
Just saw him last night with Shawn McDonald. Amazing! He's like a mix between Gavin DeGraw and Marc Broussard. Love him!! Thats me and my pal Cindy with Warren. Top: Warren Barfield. Above: Mister Shawn McDonald himself. I seriously can't get enough!

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Birthday Girl!!!

Everybody, lets wish my friend Jane a super 23rd birthday!! I would sing you the birthday rap or something but that would just be awkward! Love ya!

....and the birthday marathons begin!!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Today, at two minutes and three seconds after 1:00 in the morning, the time and date will be 01:02:03 04/05/06.

That won't ever happen again.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?

No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

Oh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean

No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie

Ohh, and I don't wanna try

Ohhhh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie

I just can't live a lie

But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie

Oh, I cant live a lie [x2]